*I'm thankful for my online widowed community, and the power of Soaring Spirits International. I'm trying hard to keep things positive on here. But there are still bad days, bad moments. Triggers. Feelings that I think will never go away, and that I feel like I'm the only one who has thought of. I'm so lucky to have found a group of people who get it. Who I can say anything to. Who won't judge - or if they do, know enough to keep it totally to themselves. And who have probably thought that way too. There really is power in numbers.....
*I'm thankful for the healthcare system here in Canada. I'm going through a rough patch, having just been diagnosed with IIH. There have been a lot of tests, a lot of appointments. I have as many Drs in my phone as I don friends (okay, not quite... but close). And then there's the mental health side and the struggles I have faced and still face on that front. I'm thankful to be able to walk into an appt and not worry about the cost. To be sent to the hospital for a test.. and then another... and not have to foot the bill. To be able to do what I need to do to take care of me, without choosing between that or our next meal. Yes, we pay through it in taxes. But I'll take the security that comes with that any day.
*I'm thankful that we did not get the huge dump of snow, and the little snow we did did not drift. I'm not a winter person, but I can't really complain about how mild it has been on a whole so far this year. Three months until Spring.
*I'm thankful that I was convinced to do this. That I convinced myself to do this. Yes, I know I am only six days in, and there are many more days ahead than have come behind. But I find sitting down, even on days when I can't find anything to be grateful for, that once the first one comes the next two or three flow pretty easily. y cup may never overfloweth. But I'm beginning to see how this may at least refill it just a little :)
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