To Be......

Every January, with the dawn of the new year,  people are looking to change.  Looking for direction.  Looking to become better.  Many of those people choose a word, a motto to act as a focal point for the 12 months that lay ahead.  This year, as I was looking to make some changes, I decided to follow suit.  Taking a look at my life, summing up what you want, what you need in a single word is not easy.  Especially when you place a lot of meaning in the words you choose.  But I think I found my word, my focus, my guiding star.

Be.

For the past five years, and probably to some degree beyond, I have not allowed myself to be.  I've tried to hide my emotions, my thoughts, my voice, expressing what I thought others wanted instead of what I wanted myself.  This year, I want to let the real me come out.

Be.

Be sad when I am sad.  Be lonely when I am lonely.  Be sick when I am sick.  Be stressed when I am stressed.  But also be happy when I am happy.  Be okay when I am okay.  Be real.  Be genuine.  Be me.  Even if I can't lower the protective masks for there rest of the world, I need to be true to myself.  Let myself live in the moment, feel the moment, whatever that moment may bring.  Stop worrying about being right or wrong.  Stop worrying about how others will perceive what I do or say.

I need to just be me.......